1st you think the worse is a broken heart
what's gonna kill you is the second part,
and the 3rd, is when your splits down the middle
and 4th you're gonna think that you fixed yourself,
5th you see them out with someone else,
and the 6th is when you admit you fucked up a little.
Yeah.
Okay, I won't admit to others outside of this blog, but I think it would be nice to get back into a relationship again after so long. But also, I can't help but think that I'm scared of what would happen. Guess, the first cut really goes in deep huh?
But if I could meet someone, who would hopefully be my husband instead of some guy that I'll have a one time relationship kind, this is the kind of relationship I would want.
Aesthetics aside, he has to be tall though, cause I'm like, tall too. Lol. He also has to have nice hair and probably just look healthy because I really like guys with that kind of healthy glow. Though it shows he isn't really buff and all that shit, he just has to look healthy. That's it :D
Of course he has to respect me, and also be loyal. I would really appreciate it if he is also open to talking about his problems cause I'm that kind of person. Open, I mean.
The sex part really doesn't faze me much but he has to not use sex as a tool to break me or even use me. As I said, men must respect their girlfriends like how he respects his mum or sister.
Being a lil secretive also wouldn't hurt cause I wouldn't want him to tell his friends all the nitty gritty about me instead of telling me about his problems that he has with me xP
Plus, I wouldn't want to be dating myself, he must also be there since I have a fear of being abandoned.
Like all the shitty things I did in my past relationship. I hope he can forgive me and not put it against me cause that's all in my past.
Ooh, I would honestly love it if he texts me first. Cause it shows that he's thinking of me, plus I wouldn't want to disturb too much and I hate th fact sometimes that I get clingy to someone. I'm afraid of caring for people.
:3 Lol, dunno if I can commit. Not because I cheat, but because I'm a commitment-phobe. :P
Of course, he has to do that. If he does cheat on me, I wouldn't even give him a second chance to redeem himself. What's done is done. You can't undo it.
YES. I ca't emphasise this anymore. When I tell him my probs, he would never shrug it of and will listen to me. He doesn't even have to try to solve it, I just would want him to listen :/
True. Previous relationship baggage. I hope my future boyfriend wouldn't hurt me for the fun of it. Cause then we would have a major-breaking-deal breaker relationship problem. And I don't think I wanna be there to solve it :P
True.
I want someone who I can be silly with, listen to my problems, won't force me to do something I don't like, respect me, give me my space when I need to, laugh&hangout with, cook with *blush*, text everyday, hold me at night before I sleep, stroke my hair before I sleep, show me&tells me he loves me, be loyal, respect me treat me like how a gentleman will treat his lady.
In truth, I really just crave the love of another human being. It gets lonely being alone sometimes.
;I don't want to be left, in this world tonight, am I alone in this fight? Or is anybody out there?
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Always on the shorter end of the stick, always a liability to everyone. "Who cares if Tennielle isn't there? That she needs someone right now? Oh, she actually was gone?" yeah, I know. It's alright though, I still love myself way better than anyone else.
If looks could kill? Right. You were my best guy friend, the one I trusted to with all my secrets, the one I could laugh with, not getting romantically involved with. That idea totally disgusts me. You once told me I don't intimidate guys but instead friendzone them? Hello, I've been friendzoned more than you ever could know, so don't put it like as though I'm a heartless bitch, kay?
Plus, it was barely even 3 months after I broke up, as if could believe in other guys again after what that idiot put me through?
So now, after all that shit that has happened, with you telling me how you really feel and then me ignoring you and everyone telling me to talk to you back again not make me feel bad also? You don't know how everyone looks at me in the group cause I don't talk to you. One of them thinks I'm overreacting. But ask everyone... They also feel uncomfortable around you, so don't blame me kay?
Can;t help it that every time you talk to me, give me special attention, make me feel more like a heartless bitch, give me those weird looks and do you remember, when we were talking last time as friends, you always made references to me being horny and a slut?
Okay, I know I've made mistakes in my past relationship that were completely irreversible and it took a toll on me okay? Every one of my fucking actions took a toll on me.
Point is, I'm moving on, and it will help me immensely if you moved on too.
Ugh, telling my feelings really is therapeutic.
;I'm gonna pick up the pieces, and build a Lego house, If things go wrong we can knock it down.
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Forget his name, Forget his face,
Forget his kiss, him warm embrace.
Forget the love that you once knew, remember he has someone knew.
Forget him when they played your song, remember when you cried all night long.
Forget how close you once were, remember he has chosen her.
Forget how you memorized his walk,
Forget the way he used to talk.
Forget the things he used to say, remember he has gone away.
Forget his laugh,
forget his grin,
forget the dimples on his chin.
Forget the way he held you tight,remember he’s with her tonight.
Forget the time that went so fast,
Forget the love that moved, it’s past.
Forget he said he’d leave you never, remember he’s gone forever.
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Everyone goes through some pain once in a while. I'll try reminding myself that I'm not alone. Like Simple Plan said "there are millions out there, I can;t be the only one". That's the only thing that keeps me going when I hear more worst stories than mine. Hypocritical much :X
That's the way how its suppose to be.
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Reason for making this blog: I just need someone to listen to me and not just trying to keep it all in cause its just me to never show my true feelings. I'm a lightweight, I need someone to listen even if your from outer space so welcome to my
tell all blog :D
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